Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Finding my way back


With a new year comes somewhat of a new beginning.
A fresh start.
When I think about what I want most in this next year,
I can easily identify one thing.

To be present.

And so, my 2010 is going to be about simplicity.

It's going to be about prioritizing my time. About not comparing myself to everyone else.

About taking a few steps back from all the crazy and embracing the moments.

The moments when my baby (who really isn't a baby anymore!) is wanting me to hold her while I make dinner. I am going to embrace this time rather than complain about not having two hands to work with.

The moments with my rambunctious two year old (who, by the way, I found on TOP of the fridge the other day. Yeah. That's right. She had found her way up there and was happily waving down to me when I walked into the kitchen. Ahhhhhh!) I am going to embrace her beautiful spirit and use these times to teach and help mold her into the woman God is calling her to be.

The moments with my sensitive 6 year old. (who does not enjoy doing his homework. Any tips on making math fun for a little boy who just wants to play outside?) I am going to embrace these teachable times, and show him patience and help him find joy in learning.

All the moments.
Good and bad.
Easy and Hard.

They will be gone before I know it.
I need to refocus. I need to not let these moments pass me by.

These are the days I will long for in the future. I don't want to wish them away. I want to regain my balance and love each and every morning I get to wake up with them... even if all I want to do is crawl back under the covers and sleep another hour.

See, somehow in the process of parenting I have lost my patience for the ones I love the most.
For Chris.
For the kids.
And even for God.

I have been quick to anger.
I have been easily frustrated.

The thing is though, I know I can't do it on my own.
I've tried.
I've tried many different ways. But I just can't do it. My patience evaporates so quickly and I find myself losing it.

So, I need to change what I am doing in order to Be Present. And I know what it is that I need. It's Him.
I need His strength. His patience. His parent's heart. His grace. His mercy. His joy. His love.

We are currently without a church to call home, so, I have decided to start my own little bible study.

I need it.

I need something to help me regain my footing. And I know that it will help me get excited about finding my way back to Him.

I have chosen to do the study JESUS- 90 days with the One and Only by Beth Moore.

I am writing this as an open invitation for anyone who wants to join me.
And possibly start our own little virtual bible study.
To encourage one another and fall more in love with Him together.

And I can't wait!

If anyone is interested, let me know in the comments or shoot me off an email. I will wait to start if there is interest in order for everyone to get their hands on a copy of the book.
:)

**Update**
Ok, so it looks like there are a few of you interested in joining me. Yippee!
I am so excited to find Him with you! I think what I love best about doing a bible study with other woman is just the sense of community, surrounding one another with such love and encouragement.
I am so looking forward to growing with you!
If you still want to join up, please do! There's still time. I think we'll aim to start on February 1st. That should give everyone some time to get their hands on a copy of the book. Please let me know if you want to join up!
Soooooo excited!

9 comments:

  1. First of all, I LOVE this post! This has been my heart the past days - somehow I feel I started to loose patience and being present once we got sick. I will join you in your study. Will you wait for me to get a book? (I hope it's OK, but I'm linking your post - if it's not, let me know!)

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  2. i am not as present as i should be. i too am being intentional about being present.

    i have done "jesus the one and only." so powerful.

    and i too am not as patient as i'd like to be. but i have come to recognize the first place to start is to give myself grace (so hard for mommies). when i give myself grace, live in it, then i can give it to those around me. grace causes me to be patient.

    love you sweet friend.

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  3. beautiful post. your heart is pure and your children are blessed because of you.

    I'm praying about joining in on your study.... I'll get back to you soon.

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  4. I am sooo in Sara!!! I'm going to call you tomorrow!! xoxo
    C.

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  5. Yeah Sara! What a great way to start the new year. I am doing Jesus the One and Only study at my church right now (it's 12 weeks I think) and so far it's amazing! I will be following your journey :)

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  6. I would love to join as well! I have really been missing this type of thing lately and I think I would benefit from taking time out of my busy life for God. I am kind of running out of time to order a book, but I will do it today!

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  7. Wow that was amazing. I started to cry because I too feel the same way. Thanks :)

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  8. I would love to join as well! I have really been missing this type of thing lately and I think I would benefit from taking time out of my busy life for God. I am kind of running out of time to order a book, but I will do it today!

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  9. I am sooo in Sara!!! I'm going to call you tomorrow!! xoxo
    C.

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